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Wednesday, May 29, 2002

Well here's about HALF of my new template up to put to use. I'll just finish it when we get back from vacation. Must... step away... from... computer! Must... conserve.... strength... for packing! I MUST nap or I won't be able to shower and pack to be ALL ready to go in the morning!

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Arrrrgh! I was just struggling with my new template when my friend's server seems to have gone down again so now I can't see what I'm doing! Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh! I'm having alignment problems with my tables....

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Tuesday, May 28, 2002

I'm currently plotting a new template and graphics for my blog with a renaissance theme... if I ever get it worked out.
I woke up and was still tired so I went back to bed and then woke up from a pain explosion so it's been a rough start to the day for me.

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Monday, May 27, 2002

Happy Memorial Day everyone, I spent most of the evening sleeping just recovering from everything, I was so tired! We got to talk with branch and skylles about the visit we're finally going to get to have with them starting Thrusday this week, it's Outland's once a year if we're lucky vacation!

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Friday, May 24, 2002

Looks like my friend's server is down again, no pretty graphics for ME today. :-P I need to go change the urls for EVERYTHING on the Magic Manor website but I keep having other things come up... Outland is supposed to talk to his boss today about applying for a new job. I hope everything goes well, it should be good if he gets it, he can use his art major skills and actually have TWO days a week AND evenings off, so we might be able to have a LIFE! Which is very exciting for both of us. And also he would get benefits after 3 months, and we have NOTHING like that now. I might finally get to have a DOCTOR! There are 2 positions open so he's supposed to ask what all needs to be done for Moonwolf to apply too, I think that would be neat if they both get the jobs, then if something BIG came up they might get to work together! ^-^

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The kitties are back today, yay! They are all a bit woozy from the knock out medicine, Ember seems the most out of it, her poor fur is all matted because she hasn't started really grooming herself again yet. Skywise seems to be recovering fastest, he is the one walking around, jumping up on things and wanting to be petted. Cutter ran off immediately after being let out of the pet carrier and I didn't get him to come out to be petted till it was several hours after Outland had left. They have special kitty litter now and little pills we're supposed to give them... we're thinking we might call Celleigh about how to give a cat a pill... the only versions I know are jokes but they sound pretty scary!
I passed out last night when we got home from wal-mart, apparantly I crawled onto the foot of the bed, fell over the piled up covers, and then stopped talking in the middle of a conversation with Outland. He called Kisty while I was sleeping but she wasn't there, her housemate was nice and took a message that we had called. I woke up because of burping... strange way to wake up! Unfortunately we're out of alka-seltzer. We tried to get all the things we've been running out of and meaning to get, but we always forget SOMETHING.
I figured out that it was Tuseday that I got to see Andi, because Monday I spent all day with John and Keri and their little girl Destinie, and Keri found the missing bee stinger that was from the bee they found in their bed the day before, it was MISSING that stinger. It stabbed her in her hand while she was picking up laundry from the bed, we were all trying not to freak out because she is TERRIBLY allergic to fire ants and was told to avoid bees because she could die from their poison. Her hand swelled some but she didn't get hives or start having breathing troubles, they decided it was good it was an OLD stinger with just what little poison dried on it, and not a bee itself that could pump more poison into her. I got to wash most of our laundry at their apartment that day but didn't get the last load of darks or the bedding done, and I didn't get my shower! Outland got there to pick me up and take us to his brother's suddenly thrown together birthday party, he said there wasn't time to go home and shower first. I was very happy to get my shower after the party even though I was ready to crash HARD. I think I hadn't gotten to shower in a WEEK with everything that happened. I was miserable.

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Thursday, May 23, 2002

OK had Big Pain Explosion and I got all disoriented and couldn't remember why my cats weren't home and I didn't remember we rearranged the furniture in the bedroom and I freaked and left an incoherent message on Celleigh's machine. I was exhausted when I had the pain explosion so I think I was just so wiped out I went delerious, I'm not sure if I actually searched through the house for the cats, or if I IMAGINED I searched through the house for the cats.... I'm glad I was SLIGHTLY better by the time I managed to remember the number to call Outland at work... his brother answered the phone and said my husband had been fired!! Then he got Outland on the phone. whew. Outland was supposed to get off work early, so I napped till he got home and I'm feeling better now, but weak and hungry. Outland is wiped out so HE'S taking a nap now. He fell asleep on the couch while asking me what I wanted to do for dinner... We need a BIG recovery Sunday sometime soon here... where we don't DO anything! This coming Sunday is my mother's birthday though and she wants us to take her to see the new Star Wars movie.

I think it was Monday I got to see Andi and her baby and she picked me up and I brought my bedding to wash so we could FINALLY have clean sheets to sleep in that didn't either stink of sweat and car trunk, or have the itchy poison residue on them. Andi made spaghetti and garlic bread and I got to feed the baby while she cooked. I also got to sing and talk to him while Andi ran into the store to get groceries on the way home. Outland came over to her house when he got off of work and we all ate dinner together and watched the movie From Hell, about Jack the Ripper. Nice movie to go with spaghetti....

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Wednesday, May 22, 2002

Well, I got the bathroom cleaned, for the most part, and finally got the living room and bedroom picked up so boxes, smaller furniture, etc. is all up off the floor... unfortunately we now effectively have NO couch and NO bed! ^-^ I turned on the tv to take a cleaning break, and Viva Rock Vegas was on and I tuned in just in time to see what seems to be an Evil Dead reference!!!! There was a little alien who said Klatu Veratu Niktu! Or however it's spelled.

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My friend sent me this in an email today, it made me LAUGH! Which is something I need right about now...

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Well I'm finally back at my own home, getting to sleep in my own bed, and slowly getting the apartment cleaned and in order. I thought I'd catch up reading all my friend's blogs and of course that leads to quizzes... heehee!


My first time taking this quiz I got this:





which children's storybook character are you?

this quiz was made by colleen




But since I wasn't sure what to pick between "determined" and "lovable" since they are both SO me, I changed determined to lovable and got this!:





which children's storybook character are you?

this quiz was made by colleen

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Sunday, May 19, 2002

I spent the day at Kisty's yesterday, and we spent the night at Outland's parents. Now we're thoroughly cleaning the house from the neighbor's bug bombing AGAIN! Ugh. We threw out 6 garbage bags of contaminated food since it seeped through any cardboard boxed or plastic bagged foods in the pantry. I'll write my big Anniversary Special later. Right now we're cleaning carpets and ALL the dishes and cupboards. Have to wash ALL the bedding and clothes later. Happy Anniversary to US!

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Saturday, May 18, 2002

Slept for most of yesterday, I was awake from 2-4 in the afternoon but so tired I went back to bed. I didn't realize till later that the new neighbors bug bombed AGAIN and it was REALLY overwhelming seeping through the walls like they weren't there. I was up again around 7 but I was so dizzy and tired that everything on the computer was in double vision so I went back to bed AGAIN and didn't get up till Outland came in the SECOND time to wake me up with pizza he'd gone out to get. I didn't even register he'd come home and crawled in bed with me to nap for over an hour!! The bug bomb had gotten him too and he's not feeling well either. We hid in our room to eat the pizza, since the bedroom is furthest from the wall, and the only room in the house that's closed from the airflow the rest of the house shares unobstructed. Outland opened the window in the living room and turned on the air vent in the bathroom and kitchen. This makes me VERY aware that if/when we move I want to have WINDOWS in the Kitchen and Bathroom that OPEN!! We can't open the window in the dining room and LEAVE it open because it doesn't have a screen.

We stayed up till about 2 am after eating, we came out and played on the computer TOGETHER which made me very happy. Outland read my blog. ^-^ He actually laughed at it and said he liked the cheese part! I helped him learn stuff for making his blog and we made his first graphic for it together. He seemed kind of daunted by the whole having to upload it to the internet to use it. He started talking about us needing to get our own server someday though and that made me happy. The more he talks about it the more I believe that someday, like 5-10 years from now, if we have the money he would agree to it!!

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Friday, May 17, 2002

Ssssugar-sugar-sugar-sugar-shugah-ssssshhhugaah!!! Sugar-bomb bombs sugar-bomb bombs sugar-bomb bombs!!!!

Guess what I did today? I had ADVENTURES!!!!! I actually didn't have to take my cold medicine after I blanked out this afternoon and when Outland called me I was out of it and I couldn't follow his words and I didn't know what I wanted to do about dinner and I couldn't make sense out of the noises he was making that were words after that and I said huh and uh-huh and I dunno a lot and then he gave up and my brain just wouldn't work to hang on to the sounds and interpret them and all so everything was hard to focus on and I could hardly give feedback to let him know I had NO idea what he was saying and couldn't make judgement calls on ANYTHING at the moment when it was all noises to me and I didn't KNOW what I wanted or what wouldn't sound icky to my tummy or anything like that, so basically I was NO help to him and he was kind of upset and scared because he gets worried when I'm like that and I get worried when I'm like that too because it's kind of upsetting to realize vaguely that nothing is getting through to you and your brain is fried or something, so after he hung up I was happy that he called but frustrated with me blanking out and then Celleigh called and I was able to answer the phone and then she started talking to me and stuff slowly started kicking in and my brain worked better after a bit and there was more comprehension partly because she just TALKED for longer because she wasn't calling from work like Outland does where he can't really just babble for a while for my brain to kick in and so I started talking back more and then she decided to see if I wanted her to come over and I did so she did and when I got off the phone I was excited so I started cleaning a bit and she got here and then Outland got home and we all got to visit and talk and then we went to eat because Outland and I were starving but Celleigh had just eaten so she wasn't hungry but she can eat meat again so they went to Pancho's earlier which is a Mexican buffet and she got to eat all the meat and it's just better to eat there that way because it's hard to find stuff on a Mexican buffet that DOESN'T have meat in it unless the have some really good avacado stuff like Outland does this thing where he takes a tortilla and slices avacado onto it and sprinkles it with salt and lime juice and it's really really good and sometimes with a little cheese too, but not the real Mexican cheese but the american version of cheese like the processed cheddar we have here which is orange and not white like it naturally would be, like the cheeses in Mexico are, because somewhere along the way we started boiling grated carrots and squeezing the juice throu a cheesecloth and using that to color the cheese to make it pretty so they use food dyes now to do that and everyone thinks cheddar cheese is naturally orange somehow because to them it's SUPPOSED to be orange but it isn't they just all go along with it because of the "it's always been that way" mentality, so they have orange cheese for no reason and people like it that way, like at the Mexican restaraunts where the real food wouldn't have had cheese at all on most of the dishes and if they did it would have been more like feta cheese is anyway, so Celleigh wasn't hungry after the buffet and Outland and I had food and I remembered my medicine and I had a coke with my meal which I almost never do and I had buffallo chicken strips and for some reason Outland had me get the dinner and I had stuffing and gravy doubled for the side dish but it was really strange together with the stuffing cravy mixing with the hot sauce, and I ended up with half of it left over anyway, and when I went in the bathroom I heard someone else had sampled the same song that PM Dawn used to make their song Set Adrift on Memory Bliss and I thought they did a pretty good job of it but when I got outside it changed into an 80s song and so we left, but Celleigh and I wanted to still hang out so she followed us back home and we spent a TON of time watching music videos switching between 2 MTV channels and Much Music which is a Canadian music channel and we were on the internet at the same time and Outland got Celleigh started on the Oracle of Bacon where you do the 6 degrees of Kevin Bacon thing and we started using it to look up everyone connected to my friend's little sister, Cheyenne Rushing, and we did that for over TWO HOURS because I think we got Celleigh addicted, and then we escaped the computer and Outland went to bed and Celleigh and I were talking and she told me about these donut triangle thingies she called SUGAR BOMBS and they were CHOCOLATE and she talked about them till I started getting antsy and I really WANTED one and she suddenly pulled money out of her pocket and counted it and she had enough to go get some and asked me if I wanted to go now and I said YES so she said get my feet on again which she asked me to do earlier except she said look for your feet and I didn't get it and I looked down at my feet and she said no your OTHER feet so I was REALLY confused and I looked at my hands, but she meant my SHOES because I called them my feet earlier because I do that sometimes when I'm being silly because when I'm tired I tend to do it unintentionally, which looks like a funny word right now but I think I spelled it right, so I put my shoes on and we went to Wally World at 4am to get donut triangles and THAT word keeps looking like it's spelled wrong but I give up, so we got there and picked out TWO each, which is a TON of sugar sugar sugar and we got cokes out of the coke machine outside except we had adventures there and it wouldn't eat her dollar but I found lots of quarters in my purse but I had to sort them out from the special ones with the pictures on them for the states because I was supposed to ONLY have that collection in the pocket of my purse but my other change got put in there too somehow so it was all mixed up and we put in the coins and I wanted a Red Flash and she pushed the button and it gave us a Sprite instead so I got a coke and she kept the sprite and we went back to the van and sat there and ate the first sugar bombs with half our drinks before she drove us back to my house and we ate the OTHER sugar bombs and finished the drinks and then we talked a LOT about tons of stuff and we cried and hugged and that was good but if we'd gotten goofy instead I'm scared of what we might have come up with, especially if we'd written anything, and we decided the sugar bombs were indeed Blogworthy, which is like Sponge-worthy and I'd better not explain that but it's funny, and so I'm kind of hyper but I thought I'd better write about it before I crashed which might be soon because my contact is bugging me but it might be my eye twitching from the sugar so I'll see when I take out my contacts and put them away in my now FOUND contact case, because earlier I lost the top of the right side of the case and the cats had knocked it off the counter in the bathroom and batted it all the way across the room under one of the two storage shelf thingies we have there for towels and stuff, but Outland finally found it after Celleigh and I searched for a while and couldn't see it, so I'm glad that's found or I would have to do something like rummage to find my OLD lens case which is acutally newer because of my other contact which was lost after I got THIS lens case and they gave me a new case to go with it but I think of it as my old case because the contact that came with it got lost and I got a newer one later, but it was time for it because I had to get new contacts altogether. I think I should go to bed now and take some extra vitamin C first and hope I stay well before I get sick again. Gooood morning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I go sleepy now.......

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Thursday, May 16, 2002

I found a wonderful music video done by a fan for Card Captor Sakura and I WANT it! The problem is at the site I tracked down where it Originated, the downloads are linked wrong so there are spaces in the url and it won't work!! Aaaah!! I REALLY was blown away by the person's work with the timing of the scenes with the music, I hope they become a director someday! I've never gotten excited about a fan music video like this before! The site is http://sakura-li.dot.nu. I wrote the owner an email about the downloads not working, after checking the FAQ and guestbook first to see if others had the same trouble. I hope they write back!!

I also finally sent off email to friends like I've been meaning too. Not ALL the email but some of it. I'm kind of backlogged and scattered with my cold moreso than usual it seems. I'm half watching 9 to 5, I took a nap after reading the last story in the Charles De Lint book I was savoring. I keep meaning to look up songs and stuff that really cheer me up but I forget what I'm doing when I try to start.

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Crashed hard last night, was in a daze when Outland got home. Still sick and icky. Outland got up early this morning at 7am to help move KP's stuff to my parents' house for storing there while he doesn't have a place. I think Kisty is trying to set him up with her landlord at another rooming house where they just rent their personal room and share the main part of the house. I just hope if he does go for that he moves in to a SEPARATE house.... I would really rather not have to see him every time I want to go over and see Kisty....

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Wednesday, May 15, 2002

Well I spent most of the day so far being sick, trying to get well, and playing on aftermathzone. I finally made myself a new sig and uploaded a lot of my stuff to my friend's personal server where he's letting me temporarily keep my site till his new server is up. Here's my sig!



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Tuesday, May 14, 2002

Eeeeeeeeeeee! Eeeeeeeeeeeee! Now I know why when I went to go do my blog the other day I was mysteriously logged out!! My hubby made a blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe it!!!!!!! I'm so excited!!!!!!!! He almost NEVER joins in with computer related stuff!! Yippie!!!!! "/me runs around in circles and falls down!" :-P

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Woke up and can't sleep now. Can't remember what time it was when I was up and awake last and took my pain pill and cold medicine doses. We have new neighbors and they bug bombed their place, which filled our place with the fumes too. That didn't help me any, I'm allergic to that stuff on top of it saying on the labels to stay away from the fumes while it's working. Outland opened the window and put on the fan in the bathroom and kitchen, as there are no windows there to let the fumes out. It was still VERY bad. We think the new neighbor was asleep in the bathroom when I got up with pain in the middle of the night and heard SNORING through the wall.
Outland tried his hand at making chili since I was wiped out, and it turned out well I thought, he used the black beans I'd made and frozen over a month ago so it's good we're using them up. I tried to sit up some in the computer chair while he moved the bed, he had some plan of moving TONS of stuff around in there, and I ONLY wanted the bed moved, so it was much easier and faster than what he thought he had to do. I'm MUCH happier without the air from the vent blowing directly on my skin aggravating my sinuses. I felt so awful I crawled into the newly bed right away before he finished putting all the blankets on. We heated up my herbal compress a couple of times trying to make the pain less unbearable, it seems to help. Outland is worried that this is the second month my pain has hit early and hard like this. I'm scared too. There's not much we can do right now with the clinic not taking new patients. I wish we were rich and could take me to drs and just leave me there in the hospital for several months to fix and heal EVERYTHING that's going wrong with me.

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Monday, May 13, 2002

Having big HUGE bad pain today, sore throat, pain in ears, sinus thing as usual. I think I have a full blown cold, possible ear infection, feel terrible, hopefully Outland wll bring cold medicine tonight. I freaked out over the bed being under the air vent blowing on me all the time, I always wanted the bed turned the other way since we moved in about 1 1/2 years ago, but I tried it this way since Outland wanted it. Now I'm just sick all the time it feels like and I think that's not making it any better. I hope we DO move the bed soon, and not another few months before it gets done. With all the sickness and stuff that comes up and him putting things off from exhaustion from work it seems like we have a rediculous wait time for stuff we're trying to do. If I can't do it by myself while he's gone at work, it seems like it just doesn't get done. Until I freak out.
I've been having all sorts of nightmares, lots of them seem to involve me trying to shut out KP or my dad from breaking into my locked room or apartment and I'm trying to call the police. First dream with KP I was trying to call 911 because he was trying to break in and he had a cell phone, which he doesn't in real life, and was somehow blocking me being able to call out because he was calling in, so I was trying to find the local police department online to report what was happening and get help. The second dream with my dad he was trying to break in and force me to do SOMETHING his way that seemed to have to do with religion, I'm not sure what the deal was there. Then suddenly I was fighting with my brother too, and my mother led me away to show me the driveway outside in this huge carport had been paved with HAM so we'd be stocked up on it for food... and I started flying around following her, the fresh ham was near the house and it changed from pink to a sort of pale greenish blue further out, she said it was frozen and would last even longer. Then there was snow and real ground and she was talking about things thawing and looking at the color of the melted water. I was still flying around behind her while she was walking back, then there was this guy blocking where I was trying to fly under some viney twigs and underbrush to get back to the house, and suddenly I was a guy too and I was having trouble finding a place to fit through the sticks and stuff to fly back to the house. Then I woke up with my huge pain. I'm frustrated because I just had a pain pill at 9 so it's not 8 hours yet for me to take one again. I'm wondering if it's possible to od on pain pills when they're not working on the pain anymore after only half the hours it says till the next one.... I'm very tempted to take another one, I'm just so tired of the pain.

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Sunday, May 12, 2002

Well I found out what happened with all my broken images! My friend's server DIED on him!! I gave him my condolences and some imaginary virtual flowers for the memorial. The old server's name was homogobben and he will be missed. Fortunately my friend says he will soon have his brand NEW server up, also to be named homogobben, so hopefully I can start uploading my site and all my missing GRAPHICS there! ^-^

I'd better get some sleep now and pray that I'm alert enough for the Mother's Day festivities later this afternoon. We're planning on going to my mother's Piano Concert, they play pieces with 2 parts, with 4 ladies on 4 grand pianos all playing at once so it's pretty fun. They practice all year for it too so I'd better make it since I missed last year!

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Saturday, May 11, 2002

Well this last few days has been stressful. I tried working on giving KP another chance at our friendship, I tried for over a month, but things have just gotten worse. He just keeps assuming and trying to get too much out of me without just BEING a friend. Dealing with him and then my brother and his wife attacking me for not being HIS friend according to THEIR standards has all just gotten to me. I felt that I would lose my brother if I didn't let KP USE me. So I tried to give the friendship another try, we tried to just get together and hang out with KP but every time we saw him he wanted stuff like when he signed up for extra hours for 3 Sundays in a row starting at 6am and it wasn't so much that he asked Outland for a ride but the WAY he did it. He announced that he had signed up for those hours and then asked Outland how early was TOO early for a ride, and before Outland could say yes or no he went into a "poor me" tirade about how he COULD get up at 4am and WALK if he HAD to but it was SO hard on him. I had a bad emotional reaction to that. I felt like he signed up for those hours with NO intention of being responsibile for getting HIMSELF to work and was planning all along to try to dump that responsibility on us. It looks like the Sundays issue is a moot point now though because after that the next time we saw KP we took him out to eat and he told us he'd been suspended. Apparantly he got a test call at work where his performance was evaluated and he wasn't doing well and then the lady doing the testing was upset and announced it was a test call and they got in a fight. That's not a good thing. Also on one of the earlier Sundays when Outland actually OFFERED to give him a ride to work if he signed up for hours, KP was a minute late so the supervisor marked a point against him and KP went off on him and yelled about how they let the pretty girls get by with it and it wasn't fair. THEN, knowing he has no electricity, no gas, no phone, and needs rent money, he threw a fit and asked to be sent home instead of working his hours for the day. So after those 2 incidents he was suspended. That was the week before this past week. Starting Thursday I think we started getting calls for him from his work saying to call his supervisor. Since he has no phone, he put us for where they should call. Again, since he has no phone, Outland had to drive over to give him the message, and KP said he would call. Then in the afternoon Friday work called AGAIN saying for KP to call them. That upset me because it looks like he didn't even call them back. So Outland AGAIN went by and dropped off the phone number on his WAY to work in the morning. Last night while I was konked out when Outland got home from work KP had been sitting on our steps and he told Outland he had been fired. We had promised to go to our friend's Graduation party since he FINALLY graduated college, so we couldn't really DO anything so Outland had to give him a ride home and only got to talk with him a little while he did that and I tried to wake up and get ready with my sinus headache KILLING me. Once I took my medicine for the sinuses it got better but I was still not well rested, so I had fun at the party but was stressed, and crashed HARD when we got home. At the party one of our friends was asking me how I was doing and I went into babble mode and tried to tell him I was upset about KP being fired and waiting on our steps when we've reached the point we can't DO anything for him anymore really. Our friend was confused and thought for a while that OUTLAND had been fired and everyone was freaking for a few minutes before it was straightened out.


Today I woke up and there was ANOTHER message on our answering machine from KPs work telling him to call his supervisor. Now I don't know WHAT is going on. Part of me is freaked out that last night he said he was fired, and now today his work is still leaving messages for him here. Now I have a part of me beginning to wonder if he ever called work back at all yet and is just assuming he is fired. And if he DID call them back then why didn't THEY tell him everything they would have needed to tell him about stuff like signing papers or last paychecks or whatever. It makes me feel like something weird is going on here and I'm very unhappy being stuck with the responsibility of taking his work messages to him. I feel like either he or his work is doing something weird and wrong and I don't want to get caught in the middle as the messenger.

PLEASE somebody comment and let me know what they think of all this! I'm at the point where we are thinking about moving to another town nearby to get away from KP and the whole situation, and I'm getting prepared to let go of my relationship with my brother over this. It's just too much for me and unhealthy all around. But I feel angry and stuck and sad about the whole thing and I know I'll be attacked for trying to protect myself.

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Wednesday, May 08, 2002

OK I just HAD to blog this! I've been wandering around trying to learn php and I FINALLY found a fairly de-jargonized version of a basic tutorial that DOESN'T assume you are setting up your own server and already know some version(s) of C or perl!! I was starting to get sleepy and thinking it's about time for a nap when I got to THIS page! Go take a look! It talks about getting sleepy! Heeheeheeheeheeeeeeee!

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Well it's been a while since I posted here. Sunday we were supposed to get to go see Spiderman with everyone, but Outland and I ate BAD chili the night before and it GOT us. :-( It's always a little scary for me to see Outland get sick. Also I freaked out and over-stressed. I got to talk with Blackrose for a few hours in the early morning and that helped. I was kind of losing my voice by the time we finished the phone call. I keep wanting to someday get a headset phone or phone attachment so I don't crush my ears and hurt them on long phone calls.
So Outland and I kind of slept and recovered for most of Sunday and we still haven't gotten to go see Spiderman. Late Sunday when we were better we got to go over to see friends and we watched 13 Ghosts and Moulin Rouge together. In an odd way I liked them both. Moulin Rouge was NOT at all like I had the impression it would be. It was fun but scary to see a musical done the way I play merging 80s songs together!! It had that same effect as Shakespeare in Love where they used the familiar lines in a new light. And the way the play story and plot developed with everyone throwing in their parts was like watching me and my friends write a round robin story. I started crying when the song about "how wonderful life is, now you're in this world" because when I was 18 and fell in love and was loved back for the first time the guy sang that song to me and it was the first time I'd heard it. And then the "moral" of the story, that the greatest lesson was to love and be loved in return, was pretty much how I felt about that first love experience in my life. I was amazed to FEEL that love really existed, so much that it didn't have to MEAN anything, like you have to get married or stay together forever. Anyway, the song made me cry and Outland held my hand all through it.
Right now I've been working on my bot and adding stuff to it so there are more variables for the random stuff it plugs in to parts of commands. I'm having a lot of fun with that. I think I have an idea of how to make player tournaments possible but it will take a lot more work on it. I also just discovered at about 8am this morning that my website host seems to allow php pages! Now I'm on a mad quest to teach myself php. So far I only know the basics of how to open and close the code and the if/then kind of thing, but I have no idea what I need to look up to learn how to make the site so it can have users log in and it keeps track of their account having STUFF, which is what I need to learn how to do. So I may disappear into this obsession for a week or so.

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